Hawaii, almost 10years there for me and there is like nothing left here on the mainland. Already with wonder setting on after the gold and red leaves change into a crisp bare frigid dawn... Finding some way to survive everything I'm reacting to inside.
The carb loaded foods here, even too much peanut butter with mold and I can't breathe with the heating blowing through the office rooms. My eyes tearing from the dust like I scorched them with hot peppers. Even though I detoxed 3yrs from toxic mold. >.<
I'm wondering how I. Going to die. Alone?too cold? Winter's end last year I slept outside in my truck below 45°. I need the fresh air for real. Too many battles....and a boom to write. Not making enough, not safe here at night.
Prayers to show me my path. Back to Oahu? Somewhere where I love my life more.