Thursday, October 05, 2006

A diary note

I realize that many of the People who reside in my surrounding community, that is less than 100,000 people, do not accept me. It has gone as far as being my physically being attacked in public, receiving broken items of mine in the mail, my car being broken into numerous times, items that I purchased (not inexpensive - like my glasses) being stolen, being told by other teachers/ collegues that I should become a prostitute; despite my daily professional dress in suits and like professional wear. All of which wouldn't happen if I were to retain a position with a reputable and diverse corporation. I have barely been hanging on financially. And, yes my life has been threatened. My independent charitable work has been squandered by other individuals including non-acceptable reprints in the newspapers where other organizations take credit for all of my work; and I get stiffed with the bill. I realize that the world isn't fair, however, they have decimated my person to no end. Many of the progressive minded people left the area last election because they could not take anymore. I have not made any money here in Bucks county; and, they have reported false incomes for me in several townships where I do not reside, nor have ever. Additionally; Many of the businesses that I have interviewed with or worked for claim their diversity because of their ability to hire Russians and that they retain minimal representatives of ethnic groups. They also slander me because of my name which sounds Celtic though, I am of 1/2 Japanese descent and look more Japanese.

This is what they call; good people, and they do everything in their power and ignorance to harm my life. They think that my Japanese family will send me money; when there are strict rules that they will not due to the further problems the people here will create in my life with more money in it. The same happened with my brother; everytime he made money through his jobs; someone would create a problem for that required funding a local lawyer. And, at one point I had to chip in too. Enough for now; vent over.

1 comment:

  1. Oko_ne
    Please take this advice from someone who would like to see you prosper and get to travel and enjoy your life again.

    Try and review your goals, pick one, pare down your resume to one page..use what is truly guided towards that goal...can't be one size fits all. If you what to go after different field you must customize and streamline for each.Cover letters should be straight and to the point..not flowery language or comentaries and proofread for syntax errors.

    As a woman to succeed in this world regardless of your herritage,sometimes you to play the game to your own advantage. Try changing your name to include you mothers maiden name with a a strong confident message about yourself and will hopefully squash some of unwanted questions you recieve.
    Try to find some humor in others know better...right? You have the power to inform or ignore these inividuals. Not everything is done in malase although at times it may seem that way.
    You seem to be lost on your life's journey. Pick a path and follow it until you have found all it has to offer before moving on another.
    You are not able to see your way through your own cloud of self doubt...believe in youself and you will start to see the goodness the world has to offer you. I'm sure your brother would not want you to give up...keep your head up and good things will find your way.
    Then soon, perhaps the peace you have been searching for will reveal itself to you.