Monday, March 25, 2019

My personal Help Story was submitted to Bruno COF

My personal Help Story was submitted  for an international publication.
The submission was made during my time as a Success Report Writer Helper with the Organization
So, it has likely been edited further

Angela M. (Kikuchi) Kneale
Honolulu Community, Hawaii, USA
December 7, 2017

Help with Photo

Paying Family Respect at Pearl Harbor 76th Anniversary

In case you want to verify if this is based on any factual information due to the unusual nature of
my personal story I am sharing; My Mother & Father are mentioned in the Obituary, as my

father is his nephew at www.https://www.afterlife.co/us/obituary-upper-darby-edward-j-
stankiewicz-5402786

I woke up in the morning and was still sad from my great-uncle passing last year before the big
Pearl Harbor 75th Anniversary. I went quietly on my own to the memorial with flowers for the
water. I did this in Hawaii the day of his funeral in Philadelphia and for the 75th Pearl Harbor
Anniversary since I could not afford to leave Hawaii. I was forced to move to Hawaii
unintended, in 2009 due to Government coercion. My great uncle served on the USS
Langley during World War 2 and was on its skeleton crew as a gunner the day Pearl Harbor
was bombed by Japanese forces. My Father was USAF OSI from a normal Philadelphia family.
My mother was a Japanese National until the late 80’s. I grew up in Quakertown, PA where my
we lived with my Philadelphian Great-grandmother, singer & voice teacher, until she passed. I
saw my Uncle Eddie almost every weekend before and after I attended college. Uncle Eddie
doubled as my USA grandfather since I never met my Grandfather on the USA family side.
As a kid, Uncle Eddie stood up for me to my Japan hating great-grandma and great-aunts. He
stood between those in my dad’s family who attacked me since birth. And he let me be a kid
taking me out for candy & Philly cheesesteaks before I had to go vegan. He didn’t spoil me like
my cousins or even give me graduation present, but he helped me through my life as a dual
national Japan-USA kid.
Uncle Eddie provided a political buffer for me through my adulthood. And a buffer in my mind to
handle USA kids & community members who abused me at School, Church, and at Piano
classes. Under teacher supervision I’d was beaten up at school regularly by groups of girls at
recess and racially taunted by boys since I was a kindergarten kid at the front of the bus line.
The Bucks County families who hated me and my family were “fake” to me in a sense of actual
USA patriotism.
Uncle Eddie remind me on weekends that I know what REAL is. He’d say, “Angie, hey
you know what real is, you’re looking at it.” He made sure I always knew that he was a
Real guy who fought the Real battles, Pearl Harbor and Iwo Jima. In 2009 before I
departed for my Hawaii vacation he stopped by and left his real mission cards for me to
see. I learned he had 8 bronze stars and 2 silver stars from Iwo Jima and his service on
the USS Langley.
Lethargic the morning of December 7, 2016, I didn’t get up and go to Pearl Harbor at 6:30AM to
wait in line & pay my respects with flowers. I also waited ALL day before I decided I should go.

And, I forgot how bad traffic is, horrendous. I did not have time or flowers (or much cash on me).
I had barely 20 minutes by the time I started praying hard. I searched my mind, I had Bruno
Groening’s photo on my car’s visor and pleaded for help. This is a normally impossible scenario
to complete at 4:30PM on Nimitz Hwy with the Arizona Memorial closing at 5PM. I pulled into
the airport lei stand and its owner immediately asked me what I wanted and dropped the price
considerably for three lei and gave me an extra lei. I had 4 beautiful lei for the Memorial. I asked
God to bless her! A shut down construction lane made traffic stand still. I was praying the whole
way and I actually got over 2 lanes with cars leaving more than enough space for me to drive
around the long way, driving through the town to the right, making a circle back to the opposing
lane to drive to Pearl Harbor memorial entrance.
When I arrived, the gates were closing and I managed to get in. A park ranger told me they are
closing the park, but saw that I had the flower lei. I placed 2 lei on the Contemplation Circle.
She showed me a place where I could easily place the remaining flowers in the water at the
Memorial. I snapped a couple photos to send to my parents. The park ranger told me some
people didn’t make the early ceremony because a house had fallen off a truck and blocked a
lane. I hope the day was perfect for them regardless of the accident. All I know is that what I did
was normally impossible, I would have been sitting in construction traffic when the Arizona
Memorial closed. I thank God, Bruno, the Lei Stand, the fellow traffic drivers, and the Park
Ranger for making this possible.

Greatest sin & overman path

Synthesis of overman & humility
About the path of the ubermensch or overman Excerpt written By Angela M. Kneale
All rights reserved July 1993 

"____________________"
What is left to live for?
Come down from the heavens and look beneath you.
"Once the sin against God was the greatest sin; but God died... to sin against the Earth is now the most dreadful thing." - Frederick Nietzsche
If the life on Earth were to die, we sin against the Earth and ourselves. We will become selfish beings without either a home or Mother Earth. We will have destroyed the things dearest us, admitted, or not. To find another Mother Earth will not be the same, and we will venture to destroy her through hatred of our initial Mother (Earth) abandoning our souls. To become a race of overmans would be favorable for self, Mother (Earth), and siblings. 

Granted to become and over man is a treacherous path strung high above the wide path of the many. However, once one has begun to take the path of the overman, the path of the many will be harder to take. There are many places to step on a path so wide as the path of the many is. The path of the many is taken to try to find the path of the overman. It is a path of pure experience and takes much from the Earth. The overman, in starting on the narrow path will be hesitant at first but with each step grow more reluctant to recede, and shall take each step with growing joy as the path is so clear, and without doubt.

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

Love around the moon

Bright red heart drawn in blood
Love around the moon

Equinox dark teara

I thought it was bad enough the past decade on Oahu. That is, going for a vacation after the adrenaline of being supportive of my folks after my brother died, then running into the ground. I got stuck on Oahu. Then SHF. I was prodded to go to an international summit despite being in horrendous shape. & While Dating the elite combat artist trainer.
I financially couldn't make it back to mainland for several family funerals.
Now, 10yrs later I'm back and on equinox got a call my 1st crush died tragically.  It doesn't feel better that I've been back not even a year and haven't reconnected with those who i spent family holidays with.

Yesterday I tweeted a big psychic attack; type thing. So tonight's phone call explains what was sheer pain yesterday.

In tears. They place is tearing up my soul.

Supermoon

Moonlight makes her water. Tonight I finished filling bottle to set down at 20:08 or 8:08PM moonrise in the east.
A short meditation brought bright orbs and dark shadows. Giving thanks and asking for healing & interconnectedness with mother Earth and all of the spirits.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Looki g for work

I'm going on 6 mos. Here in Bucks County. I don't feel safe here.
I am asking, For prayers for me to return to Hawaii with employment. I planned really only to be here till January so I could still find hospitality employment & do usual odds and ends jobs.
However, I am now basically stranded in the middle of nowhere & many extreme hate crimes, propogate by Mostly cacucasians, seem to be hitting  the media from this County.

Prayers...

Monday, March 18, 2019

Prep talk tonight
Hypervelocity star
Pythagorean Angle
Hounds of Anubis
Pythagorean Curve
Saves the world
Druids, Stonehenge
Healing Bluestone
Quantum body
My Oob & NDE; tankas, monastery, grey, perception shift from Oob at 10/26/1996, Ray elliptical light w/ scatter, expanded perspective,

Orbs, channeling spirit, energy,archangels, demonic substitute for God's angels,
More

March 21 Full fertility Moon solstice

Getting ready for the fertility full worm super moon in 2more nights.

Clean Glass bottles
Do both pyramid & merkaba meditations
Add swirl of light
Okiyome bad places in life even if it's a mental walkthrough

Intermittent fasting (21hrs today) & every day going into 🌒 moon

Cleansing & letting go of all that doesn't flow.

Big awakening & sky portal duty

Sunday, March 17, 2019

Draw a line- i'm almost dead

Reframing what Bucks County is;-

A White supremacist hotbed for domestic terroristic actions.

Predominantly Diverse European Caucasians who are inbred in thought and never left the area.

Conversationally inept and not held accountable for criminal actions against foreign nationals & their families.  They choose this cover up method to prompt national incidents. Questionable actions their community Gangstalking teams execute have gone unnoticed largely due to the numerous municipalities that are crossed while driving 313rte. They are aware of this and boast it. So they have cooperation as well as insignificant crime while continuously stalking an individual such as myself. Local law enforcement has not consider point a to point b stalking, rather they go by municipality irregardless of tresspassers and harassment t or assault once I have arrived at home.
In my brother's case his attorney & also car salepersons were able to secure a significant amount of his money in this way - including running him off the road. Obviously this became one of the largest financial damages prior to his unnatural death. And, also the reason why I was not funded for any USA based Export-Import business discussed from my childhood. Aside from the loss of my 3rd person intermediary, my brother;- Japan's perception was that his attorney was behaving in a manner much like Yakuza crime gangs in Japan. Isolation and resource exploitation of an individual and their family.

Thus the new saying
"(Mainstream Caucasian) Americans are worse than Yakuza."

Bucks County White terrorists

In my days as a mixed race piano faculty here in Doylestown, PA I was pummeled with racist comments, emotional & sexual harassment on a daily basis.
Many of the domestic parents spoke to me in a very rude way. There was a very small percentage of parents and families who didn't cause me to plummet into a depression. That is aside from snide & white supremacists who hired me and also directed men to harass me. I had not shared my personal life with them to stay professional. Yet they constantly attacked me for being unmarried and not forcibly impregnated by a male of their community. I had had a very long relationship from college that I kept away from them due to very political reasons.
In any case, I had gone to the brink of being suicidal from their brutal racism & sexual harassment. When I went to secure an attorney they a declined due to my race and national background. Some said I deserved to be "sexed up." As a pathetic ethnic my father threw to the comnunity to be used. Neither of my parents were instructed by attorneys to do commonplace checkup calls on my well being daily or even weekly, despite my residing with them for 1.5yrs full-time until i was able to spend part of my week with my partner & friends in NY State.
So aside from employment laws that were broken by the conservatory; I was unable to get any moral support within the Bucks County organization. Instead I  found help through an expensive Life coach & musical/play/film director. The life coach simply coached me through professionally ending my relationship with the "conservatory".

It was a very depressing experience I received from many of the parents who don't think non-whites are an appropriate role model for their children. And, it was just a barrage of insults directed at me mostly rooted in Bucks County area racism. Even the few African-Americans whom I met with at open houses blatantly said things of a similar nature.
So my question is to the Bucks County Community;- who then is an appropriate role model for the Mixed Race children?

I myself was belittled and beaten up by school mates and teachers in school K-12 due to being the only non-white and mixed race child for several years of my public school experience. It was condoned by my teachers too for "brownie points" by the other kids.

I personally don't find this attitude appropriate here in Bucks County. it is a tradition they have taught all kids on school trips in the past;- James Michner's Japanese wife wrote diaries of her abuse & first experiences of USA racist abuse & harassments. Or Pearl S. Buck's adopted daughter who left behind a small legacy documenting sexual & racial emotional & physical abuse.

I have lost both my brother & Sister in this God forsaken hell they can Bucks County. And,after 6 mos. Of returning to the area have already been barraged with the emotionally abusive & racist & immigrant directed verbal abuse weekly and in some cases daily.

There is no decent legal representation at any price & my past experiences have incurred police threats when I attempt to represent myself. They refuse police reports I have made (if they didn't throw them away giving me a fake report number). And have refused to take complete reports for serious crimes including times I was abducted, assaulted, & stalked.

So how am I supposed to say I think these people are even competent to raise ANY child when these behaviors are what they choose to propogate?

Bucks County today is not much different. Their sketchy county services also maintain that potentially false power of attorney are 100% reason for them to abuse minority women particularly. It sounds more like entrapment to me. They do tend to place blame on any minority 100% for incidents caused by their locally known domestic white supremacists & terrorists.

I read the news in late 2018-early 2019. Still to my dismay;- Bucks County is plagued with racism & hate crimes directed at non-caucasian. Including school children lobbying to bring awareness of 2018's racism & hate crimes in public schools. That is over 40years of hate crimes and discrimination festered in Bucks County's Public Schools.
Additionally, end of January 2019;- Quakertown Community School District is accepting Martin Luther King as a viable Holiday!  That is the High School where I endured more abuse and social outcast isolation by many of the teachers from 1988-1992. Now tell me how they are appropriate role models?

My brother & I were the only Hapa Asian kids in the school district. My brother had Human rights organizations involved in his Ivy League demise by the Quakertown High School President 1993/94. I was pummeled by white supremacists trying to lure me to fights to be beaten to death at the mall & movie theater and several area churches. And NOT MUCH ChANGED.

I am disappointed by this communtity and it's recruitment of outsiders to use in their hate crimes.
Someone needs to step in and force them to be more socially adept than wretched. Others accept White bucks County citiEns into their diverse communities. Yet there is no reciprocation, Even for a mixed race mixed nationality family like ours (3rd Generation).

They have done numerous terroristic acts against me and my family, especially financially and property damage. They don't want and never want a Peaceable future.

I only made it

Quick summary- Bucks County terrorists

Life here in Bucks County is awful for me. Every interaction is tiptoeing around whoever these white people are. I

The levels of emotional abuse & threats subtle,social, backstabbing & overt have historically been covered up by local & state police.

White supremacists are gangstalkers moreso than any other type of perpetrator aside from invasive Electronic Warfare from other nations.

They targeted me in K-12 ;- and include racism by Italians and other so called non-white yet European ethnics.
They hire an ethnic or token person for fear of retaliation & verification of the token person. Sometimes they hire more than one which serves as their "progressive & compliance" cover. It does not mean they actually don't continue to overtly attack other non-white minorities. Additionally they don't define the divide between international USA citizens when they attack families. They simply attack every family to create international incidents in multiple nations. This is what I have endured and witnessed in Bucks County from Doylestown to Quakertown & New Hope as well as Mexhanicsville & Buckingham TWP. In Pennsylvania.

Also the organizational figureheads switch position within the community in order to still enable serious felony crimes against non-white minorities. It is difficult to sort out due to the non-inclusion. And also life threatening when they do include minorities.

I have seen the interactions through my life as well as understanding the legal bulldozing their agencies & police propogate in order to effectively traffick, abduct, or assault women like myself.
Though not always sexual trafficking, they may also be trafficking and doing clandestine ops of their own coordination. This was aside from Ritual Abuse interconnected to demonic witchcraft by some Masonic & Illuminati in the community. However, many who work within Government & human services did express their links to IRA or CIA or MI5/6 individuals in the past.

IRA Memory on St Patrick's day

I just can't keep trusting anyone, where my y life is an affidavit full of hate crimes & CIA/IRA suspect & MK ops against me &/or my Japanese family. Even if Peter Arthurs  was being a nice dude stopping by my place one summer I was at Cornell brushing up on my Japanese. He sat in my living room and talked story about his life and Arthur C. Clarke He wrote a book on Brendan Behan.
Carl Sagan lived at  the top of the street and he lived halfway in between. Those were strange days.

Saturday, March 16, 2019

Pintos

Cooking 1/2 of the dry .75lb of pintos soaked overnight.

With 1liter Water
1 blacktea bag for 3min.
1/8cup dried rosemary
1tsp salt

Cooking for 45min on low after bringing to a boil. Or Till soft

My Reflections of USA mainland

Hi all. I'm having a very difficult time.
I am asking  for prayers so that I can find a safety here in Pennsylvania & USA far from the friendly faces I miss in Hawaii Pacific region.

As you know, my brother was found shot dead on the property here. I have alot of trauma from people here. He was found with his head literally blown apart. I also had to watch his body burn at the crematorium my mom's request with her for what she calls custom.

Things are more difficult with my parents than when I grew up here.
I documented his fake friends who also were inappropriate backstabbing white supremacists.
This has cost our family alot, even if my parents are ok with it since they don't have to worry about him anymore.

I am a Japanese mixed race  human being who is his sister. I do not agree with the nonchalant attitudes of my parents and the communities & people who violently pushed him to his final resting place at age 27 & 2mos.

Additionally, my sister was killed in 1970, prior to my birth. I filed a basic police report regarding what my mother told me when I was still a toddler. The story of her death was my mother's lesson to me of how awful the people in this Pennsylvania community are.

In my late teens, I became an activist due to the continued hate crimes  & racial discrimination against my life throughout k-12 in the Bucks County & at college in upstate NY & surrounding communities. It included my teachers, pastor(s), schoolmates, and people who should have been there to protect me.

It was an international incident.
Regardless of any USA law enforcement covering it up as a simple suicide.

Today I am in my 40's and I was asked to try to fill a role that needed both of us to participate In starting a legal export-import related & USA based, international family related business. Obviously things have taken a turn for the worse with the entire USA on the international stage.
These plans did not include either of my parents. This was to give us & our future kids a way to survive better than how racism dictated by mainstream USA. Instead, I am left without anyone or anyone understanding what they did and how damaging they were.

Due to several factors we were supposed to be protected without special favors from USA. However that turned into my being trafficked & used for clandestine ops against Japan by several people who are very powerful or wealthy in USA related to infrastructure & export-import or security. My own father potentially being the biggest backstabber in my life by manipulating us directly as children through what is known as MKUltra or MKstargate.

I have taken the past 2-3 years to sort through the abuse & damages to my life in total from all of this.
The odds may be stacked against me, however I pray to God that sharing my story helps to save other's lives.

I hope to have an international affidavit completed in the next month or so.

It has been at extreme expense to my personal professional & financial life to do this. If you can help support me through this, please do.
I am also seeking work that still enables me to complete this massive project.

Thanks & Arigato.
Namaste, Mahalos, obligado

Bucks county guided meditation

I'm Starting early on the outdoors meditation ;- happy to also join you and guide you & your group to natural sites in and around the area. for a daily fee.

Meditation tomorrow at Ringing Rocks.
weather depending Bring a yoga mat & hammer in this floody & muddy weather.
Hammer to play the rocks.
http://www.buckscounty.org/government/ParksandRecreation/Parks/RingingRocks

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Million Dollar Bill

My Story not for affidavit.

My father was held responsible for the party favor Million Dollar Bill with the Statue of liberty being printed.
At that time, our whole family came under scrutiny & surveillance as it created an international incident in the Middle East.
I was not aware until after everything occurred.
However, I suspect it was the catalyst for the NY Underground related handler who came into my life in 1996.
Some thought I would have married otherwise, however he was opped with a Russian woman at Cornell University while I was away for most of the year 1996. 1996 a Crux in my life

Monday, March 11, 2019

Spider season. & Old farmhouse

Anyone know when spiders hatch?
Had several of these guys when I got here. This one died by my  frankincense resin (which is higher vibrational frequency) in coconut oil (barely a spoonful i had in a bowl) a low toxin

Programmable Life forms?
I gave light to one with intention & they went up to location atop a dresser with Bruno picture where i gave them a little water. Spider didn't run away and allowed me to serve a small bit of water. So it seems if I direct light with intention they obey a little. 

Non-toxic yet Dusty remedy to hard shelled insects & arachnid;

In Hawaii I scattered Diatemacious Earth & left the apartment for a month upon finding a pinky nail sized brown fiddle head spider. Baby brown recluses after heavy rain in my 2nd floor apartment.

Vengeful arachnids & others I'll willed  programmable intentions;-

I'm a bit worried. Tons of webs we're left in the basement when I arrived. These weren't the daddy longlegs I played with in childhood. The bigger adults wolf spiders stalked me out too after vacuuming. I feel their eyes on me aka their psychic frequency;- & find them easily. I learned to recognize their intent in Hawaii. Some of the spiders & large tropical predatory millipedes & centipedes also send Psychic energy of attack.

Older folks not in reality;

How to explain the health hazard to my parents? They have gotten into protecting animals (as a cover for abusing me in childhood). They also and been using tons of pesticides on their own sleeping areas & not cleaning the cat's water bowl of slime from being near a we'll used winter stove. The cat, a familiar walks around crying for water when the weather is ill. Both have hand issues from surgery or carpaltunnel or Lyme disease issues. I even vacuumed webs for hours...

I vacuumed out 1/8 of the basement where there was an entire colony of webs & eggs under the stairs. The 1 brown recluse worries me due to number of egg sacs. OMG. I'm going to be sleeping in my car soon just for them NoT walking on me.

So, how to tell them how dangerous this is now that it's spring? Or just still do I do Einstillen for it...yes.

Thursday, March 07, 2019

Thoughts

I have the pain &  waste of my life on my mind. In the back of my head...
Somehow, supposed to give them hope.

Hope hasn't been there for me since I was a child. Recently I've been filling out a 90some odd page international affidavit to let whoever is looking for such information know that. That is, if they understand anything about my existence & how it affects/ affected politics globally.
I did have some say in my family as my extended family in Japan paid some attention up to recently.

I've been praying alot for life here in the USA to change for the better for me. My soul & finances pounded into the ground along with everyone else's frustration of seeing me in failure mode due to the sheer cost of attacks on me & what was my family that left my 2 siblings dead.
It's hard to prove its not a farce that my family just doesn't care, or they gave up long ago.

After all, my mother moved to the USA with a man, my father who reads my writing & has had his attorneys involved in civil conspiracy against us Japanese-Americans for as long as I can remember. It wasn't just MKULTRA my mother informed me of;- but that our presence here would have been a diplomatic peace mission if he had been an Ambassador class person.

March flow rhyming

Hull of my Heart
Is safe from Storm
Weathered n' worn
My firery tears fall heavy
Into Ground
Up a tree grows of 
Skeleton folk

Never never
Allowed to cry
Now now
I know why
Life of my tears
Is death of all fear
Ur jus like a devil
Telling us lies
Teaches us ways
Not good, I survive

I found a good tune
That helped me survive
Feeling alone,
after such a big loss
Walking alone,
sacrifice is a huge cost.
Walking alone
With an empty heart
And they think it's alive.
Lot of us live,
Feeling empty inside
Saying alot
it would be better to die
Walking alone
with an empty heart
My heart it aches
And it kinda wipe out
So much I did
I wasn't about
But I did what I did
All that I had
Met a few others
Kept me smiling around.

Walked down a highway
With a mystical man
Moves all the ocean
Waves & d sand
And I turned around
See two guys n they dreads
They sat smiling by
d'grocery store across from sea
Place in my heart
Special to me

Returned to my home
After so many years
Nothing is same
Big hole bringing on tears

Weight of my sorrow
Didn't dull a bit
Suprising me like
a big birthday cake

Weight of my sorrow
Weight of my tears
Haunting me for
So many years
There's a time to be
A time to thrive
Walking in past footsteps
It ain't really alive
Gotta find a groove
Make amends
Even after loosing my closest friend
Keep living for you
It ain't really my way
Memory treads on my heart everyday
--
Poverty is a disease of belief in virtures of leaders who keep us safe.

Fueling your hatred
Ain a good vibe
Do I fear (F-E-A-R) it out
Do I flip the page
Changing my vibe
Speak of different ways
I got my own way of thinking
How our world should be
I stand with others
In a real (MK online) city
Our game is real simple
Didn't you know
They making it tough
For everyone's soul
I show you my way
Struggle every day
Fighting like crazy
Between every post
Here's what I got
Here's what I did
You know I got skills
To get through these trials
Imagine doing this
As a mother & child

Wednesday, March 06, 2019

Garden of Eden thought

Did anyone ever wonder?
Did Adam or Eve?
How the sex would be(have been)
Without biting into the apple?

Monday, March 04, 2019

February 2019

Some words I wrote...been silent for a long time poetry & Earth.

Caress your neck & shoulders
Cool, air & free.
Rock me to my slumber
Surfin on the Sea
Starlight from heaven
Fills my heart with dreams
Moon glows a Halo (of ho-oly)
Sun bring a rainbow
Through dark clouds, it casts
All impassioned...
These experiences last

Watching moons & rainbows
On our balcony
Lifetimes in motion
Meetup hardly
New Year's mentions
Of us hardly

Didnt you know
when my tears are dark
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me
I jus wanted to say

A comet crashes into Sea
From the world above
A comet crashes into Sea
Didn't you know
You're important to me
When my tears fall heavy
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me.

Gotta teach young souls
What saves Earth is fun
All my dark tears,
Lost days and years
My heart,
figured I should start
Caring about this world
Burned like a comet

Didn't you know
when my tears are dark
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me
I jus wanted to say...
My heart burns like a comet
Watching moons & rainbows
On our balcony
Lifetimes in motion
Meetup hardly
-

Looking for a reason
To keep hanging on
Any little reason
To laugh and smile
Just that one thought
Got, got me through
A very tough time
Whenever I hurt
I think of you

Saw those bad times through
And I hope, some love was there.
I never knew.
Kept guessing
about you
If your intentions were
Good -- somehow you saw me through

I walked in your room
In A dream of mine
Just to check and see
If you were fine.
Wanted to say
I loved to live
Took a chance
That things, me and you
Would work out positive too.
-
Ty Spiiren my Day

I love you baby
When you do it right
Right vibe, right way
You know... right vibe
When I do it,
I do it right
When you do it, right
Yea eh eh eaah

When we stay
By beach or bay
Soothing sound
Make sky & waves
Sacred place - don't take it away
By ocean waves

Magic, freedom
Heart vibration, sails
Under sunlight
Till the sunset
Even moonlight
Make love
All all all night
I love you
Making it too
Right vibrations
Hold my hand
Walkin the beach
Watching waves
Pounding reef
Breathin, breathe in.

Wake in the dawn
And do it all
Just one mo-o-ore

Magic, freedom
Under sun light
Till the sunset
Even moonlight
Make love
all all all night
I live you
Making it too
Right vibe

Hold my hand
Walkin the beach
Watching waves
Pounding reef
Breathin, breathe in.

-
Didn't I trust you with anything
My heart, I counted
Didn't know I needed to explain.
Taken for granted
Not a fair trade
Everyday livin
why you got to add strain?
Simple is life,
in a certain way
Wakeup, coffee, smoothies
Smiling every day
[Yeah I got my work
Bills expect to pay]

When we are together
I found a certain groove
Breathin together
Makin my mantra, Everyday with you.
--

In a land far away
My friends in ohanalei
So good so free
So many same as me
Growing up so far away
Didn't know life could be that way
Lost my brother in a violent way
We could always relate
Lie the same way
Same goal
No matter how far away
Even if a year passed
Know our way
Till life's end,
make it last

Wish I could stay
Without hate
So much hate
Nothing feeds my soul
So much bird song
Lightens heavy mood
Sun it shines
Palms they sway
Turtles they see
Me...on beach I pray
Take yoga class
Sunrises, I
Dinner is served
I prep a little more
Go out to work
Till near next days dawn
Socialize and revolutionize
My thought my word
--
Heilstrom came into my life
My insides, soul, all torn apart
Everyday a little part, heals a little bit
Heilstrom stitch and light, it grows
Mends a piece ravaged by dark evil ways that my heart does not want to stay.
Fixing my heart like God only knows
Heilstrom is a stitch of light from God. The thread, the chord eminates his Love. Golden glow fixes my eternal grid.

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It changes course

Souls are born
Know who they want to be
Devil's actions
Change your course
Trust me
Planet made divine
With Sin's finery
Mark of error
Changes our course
Not that we perish
Immediately
Changes course from
divine
robs mind.
Changes course.

For matter, for care
Divine path
Trust God is there.

My heart, its empty

||:  I need love for all the time Earth turns...& Then some  :||

Sunday, March 03, 2019

On a happier note

In winters weather mix,
Birds come to eat seeds tossed on the ground. Usually they fly away when the see me approach. However, since I shovelled a couple days ago & tossed some 5am seed for them;- I added some Unhulled hemp seeds.
So today, the bigger of song birds landed by our patio door. Birds looked at me and then looked over remaining birdseed like (what is this ?) Then looked back at me.
It was an oh man, I didn't feed u.
So I got my bag of seeds and tossed a few handfuls out for them. They returned to eat the seeds. And, only a few hemp seeds were left when I returned to check.

Birdseed makers need to add hemp seeds to every mix. Birds all over the world seem to pick hempseeds as favorites.

Prespective: Diversity, Dating, Dailylife.

Diversity USA

Born As a 1st generation Japanese-American & dual national, I have been forced into USA's diversity debate.

It seems my Caucasian east coast counterparts  still hypothesising about diversity. They are still in a sea of Homogenized eurocentric family traditionalists.  Their dating habits are also largely Caucasian. They don't interact with women like me in an equal manner or consider the constraints of their biased gender & employment systems.
It's virtually inescapable, and is an "investment" decision and risk assessment to even venture on the highly unusual first date. Rather, they opt for insulated sexual harassment, abduction, and sexual assault as their primary interactions for "diversity". While mildly sitting back and interloping with collegues of minority desparity, and statistical comparisons of race based plights.

My return from diversely integrated Hawaii has shockingly contrasted this common Eastern Seaboard experience. There are virtually zero Japanese men for me to date here. They are scooped up quickly by others who target them for income viability. A prime social slave.
It's USA's pecking order of slaveship, nothing my Japanese family has ever had to endure. They know little of racism. Even my cousins who attended University in Philadelphia were quick to adopt Jibe to fit in.

I've grown weary of the Caucasian dating scene due to their sex trafficking pimp attitudes towards dating me as a rare American-Asian privvy to their racist tonalities.
The same tonalities they scorn me for spotlighting as a USA standard over 3000miles away from the crossroads of flourishing Asian-American culture.

It's lonely here. Quite possibly worse than being a severely disabled child all through life. Friendships are scare due to encroaching 'let me get at you to prove myself to the others' Caucasoid conquerer mentality.

I'm so exhausted and disheartened from this, it makes me miss being poor in other more friendly places.
However, I'm financially trapped again. 5months of violent & angry threats in the Quakertown Community. It's not the uninterested or positive people I have to worry about. I have to worry about the few haters who are active about causing harm. They have engulfed and sunk my hopes of a pleasant life on the Eastern Seaboard.

Prayers to me, I still hope for a nice life.

Saturday, March 02, 2019

Black

Black lace lies like wings of flies.
Death rides my soul with reapers' grim eyes.